Dear Katheryn,
I'd like to be supportive. I don't know how, though. I'd just like to send some supportive thoughts your way.
I think that some meds work better than others, and I've found it really hard advocate on my own behalf when I've been in such incredible pain from mental illness. It's easier to self-educate now, though, about meds, because there's a lot of good-quality information on the internet, on reputable sites. I'm sure that meds help me keep my job and my house, and help keep me alive, but my son is the #1 reason I'm alive still.

Good luck! Thinking about you!
Winnie