Thanks Gr3tta I am feeling so much more positive today and I like it.

I had 1 chocolate bar to satisfy my cravings last night, and that was it. I didn't beat myself up about that chocolate bar and it didn't lead to a binge.
I am so proud of myself, I cannot begin to describe how impossible that would have been last year.

Another thing praying on my mind is this: I have been through the anorexic phase before, several times, and also through the bulimia phase before. Where I am at right now confuses me. Its like a mix of them all, but not for any period of time. I am not even sure that constitutes having an ED anymore.

It makes me sad.