I had been doing very well for a while and then my husband mentioned he thought I was in a hypo-manic phase and I agreed and so did my doctor so we decided to change my meds. In that phase I was unbelievably productive and happy and my sex drive was sky high. It was great. I wasn't harming anyone.

Then came the med change and now I'm in a mixed state where my thoughts are racing, I'm irritable yet I'm also depressed and cannot get myself to do anything. Just showering today was an unbelievable challenge. The worst part is the feeling I want to crawl out of my own skin but I just can't escape. It's seriously a terrible feeling and I know many of you know exactly what I'm talking about.

So here I am feeling basically like crap and we have the nicest weather possible. I've been dying for this weather so I could start running again, do yardwork, prepare our garden, prepare our camper for a trip we're going on in 2 weeks, etc and instead I am sitting inside on the couch in yoga pants and a hoodie just sitting. I can't handle the tv on and I just cry.

I wish it were at least horrible outside so I didn't know how much I'm missing out on by feeling this way.

It's so unfair. Why can't I/we just be normal and happy and able to enjoy life without all of these complications??????????

Ok, thanks for letting me vent that. Even if no one replies, I really needed to get that out there.