Gaa.. I don't understand why people want to be like that, ya know? It kills me to see the way some people treat others, it's like they don't even understand how much their words could really affect someone...

Mom is finally going to set me up a phych appointment though, on a sort of good note. I've just been so depressed lately, and I think I'm getting a stomach ulser because I've been so upset about it. I've seperated myself from my friends, my family, I havn't wanted to talk to anyone, I get sick almost everytime I eat.. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't even want to wake up in the mornings, I just wish I could sleep and never wake up. It is finally getting bad enough to where mom is taking notice. She said the reason she waited so long is because she didn't want me on meds, but I don't know.. I'm kinda scared that they might put me on them, but if it helps, I'm fine with it.