No ginaaa22, you are not running away from your problems. Choosing to have no contact with a dysfunctional parent/home is not running away. You have had things happen to you that were wrong and have confused and hurt you. You need to distance and spend time with a therapist and together discover how you were hurt that was not your fault.

There are many people who have been hurt by how their parents were active addicts and alcoholics where they were more about getting high and their needs than properly nurturing their children. And all addicts and alcoholics deny they abused or hurt their children or spouses. It is an unfortunate part of the disease of addictions.

Another thing that you may find very helpful and supportive is going to an ACOA meeting near you, or an al anon meeting where others like yourself are seeking support because of the addict/alcoholic in their family environment and how that has badly affected them.

((Hugs))
OE