Thank you all so very much for taking the time to read my post and reply to it.

I like the option of not personalizing my husband's question. That's what I aim for. Even though it still hurts...I feel misunderstood and isolated when he asks the question. No, the insulin/diabetes argument doesn't sway his opinion, because he is a devout believer of each person creating our own reality, including creating our physical health (or illness). My husband follows the teachings of A Course In Miracles...which he seems to get kind of mixed in with certain aspects of his rigid old-school Methodist upbringing (the Methodist church has progressed a lot since my husband was a child). He's followed ACIM for decades. My mental illness has always been a source of confusion and frustration for him. his OWN mental illness is tremendously stressful for him - but he also denies much of what our children and I see as his mental illness. He believes that to be sick (ANY kind of sick) simply means that we are asking for love...the ultimate love being the love of God, and we reach God by asking for help from the Holy Spirit and/or Jesus. I was raised with several religious and spiritual influences and I am a spiritual person. I believe in the power of genetics and such, though.

Michanne, I would LOVE LOVE LOVE to go off meds. I feel like my life has been stolen from me by mental illness and, subsequently, by the medication I need to treat said illness. I just try not to think about it, to just keep looking ahead rather then dwelling constantly on the extensive damage mental illness and med side-effects have done to me.