Hang on, hold the phone! It is totally natural to hate the sound of your voice because the sound you hear on a recording often sounds nothing like what you hear in your head. I'm not belittling you nor negating your feelings....fact is, I hate the sound of my voice as well, and have (in my youth) been part of a couple of bands etc. It was fun once I got over the shock that I didn't sound like I thought I did. What I thought (and still think btw) sounds nasally and icky actually sounded (to others....if applause from paying customers is proof of impartiality) very sultry and husky.

I don't sing except for myself, because like you, I love music--tho not to the extent or talent you obviously possess---but it makes me happy. Please try not to be so hard on yourself. If others think you're good (bands and projects) you have to believe they would not offer if they thought your voice would embarrass them.

Fact is, you probably, to them, sound way better than you do to yourself. Kind of like...if you don't mind the analogy...perfume smells different on every person: to the one wearing it, and to the person near them. Which is why the best perfumes are so expensive, and so unique.

Take care ((hugs))