Dear T,

I felt closer last night for much of the time but I can't articulate why. I was more vocal and succinct than normal, but again, I can't explain why. I hate that about myself. I hate that I change so dramatically in how I feel and present. It makes relationships damn near impossible and meeting everyday little goals so frustrating. But thank you for being "on" yesterday and taking advantage of my clarity by guiding me gently toward some things I probably wouldn't be able to talk about much of the time. I'm starting to feel a bit understood by you and I didn't know if that was possible. I appreciate you greatly.