I have never cut but I understand it is similar to doing drugs and addiction. It gives you a big boost of endorphins and takes away the psychic pain. It can be addictive. A form of self medication. I self medicated for many years with drugs and alcohol. It did not end pretty as you can probably imagine. It is how I coped with life and escaped pain. I don't recommend it. It worked in the sense that it relieved pain and allowed me to cope for a number of years but in the long run it made things much worse.

You have to follow your own journey and it is not really for us to say. Maybe it will be years before you get help. You could choose however to rely on the experience and wisdom of the many people here who have gone through what you are going through. How did someone you relate to here get through it and come out on the other side.

It is a huge step that you are posting here and please keep posting.