Yeah depending on how I look at the scoring I either did really bad at 85 or really good cuz that's a solid B. It doesn't matter anymore though. My partner wants me to leave if I stop trying to get better and fix myself. She says if I give up I have to leave. Which means I have no one and nothing and I lose everything that ever matter to me again.

I'm sorry, I feel so crappy and bad about myself today. I feel even worse because I've in essence invited all of u into my hell. Again I am so sorry.