I'm wondering if my mixed episode our whatever the heck that was this past week is over. I'm not feeling great but a bit better which I'll accept. Wondering if it'll last a while. Have therapy today after work, shes been on vacation so she knows nothing of whats been going on. I've decided I need to talk about why this was so bad and I think it has a lot to do with my frustration level. I'm so tired of trying to do all this "crap" i'm told will help but then I get thrown back into the same black hole at different levels. The psychiatrist was the missing link according to my nurse so now we've got that spot filled meds will get right and I'll have the right support team to back me up. I'm indebted to my nurse this week I've talked to him nearly everyday. I needed someone who understood and "knew" what should be said. Have you ever had someone tell you "you are the strongest person I know. When someone asks me to name a strong person your name is the first one in my head." I heard this everytime I talked to him even when he knew what my thoughts were. My wife has been saying similar things but i'm of the opinion shes obligated, plus she doesn't know everything. I'm rambling. Gotta go back to work. Take gentle care all.

Tig