Well I did a minor adjustment backwards on my meds and it seems to have helped. Yesterday I still couldn't work, but I was able to at least get myself outside and help with my kids. The day before I couldn't do either of those things.

I know I shouldn't wait on calling my doc but I hate being that client that is always calling to get in sooner than I was supposed to and I do it a lot. I figure this time I'll just stick it out and maybe I'll adjust to the meds. Although now that I changed them, I think it'll be better. I just didn't have the energy to call my doc, let alone go in. I barely made it to therapy and of course when I saw her I wasn't in the mood to talk so we worked on something else and I didn't mention at all how ****** I felt. However, my husband pointed out she probably noticed I was wearing yoga pants and a hoodie in the middle of a work day, so she probably guessed what kind of day I was having. LOL

It's nice to have a place to vent those things. I also told my husband and he does everything he can to support me but since he doesn't know what it feels like, I still feel alone with those feelings. It's nice to have this board to here other people say "you're not alone" - I'm there too or, I've been there too.