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Originally Posted by waiting4
So there was a guy who walked up to my desk, and he was friendly...I had to do a quick check for him....still friendly. Almost smarmy, but not creepy smarmy, just......it annoyed me. He wasn't very young ( so not suggesting the dreaded 'ma'am' affect, nor older...about my age) and he was not flirting. Just....niiiiice.
Seemed so phony but then I thought...really???? How can a 10 second dialog create any impression of fakery? But he was. I smiled and was friendly right back, but eye contact was NOT gonna happen.
And even tho I was nice back, I feel disappointed in myself because he was probably honestly nice...and I resented him for it. And don't even know why. (sigh)
Gonna be one of those days.
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i think that given what you went through with your ex, it's a natural knee jerk reaction that you probably will have for a while. it becomes hard to trust anyone after you have been through a bad relationship especially where the ex has manipulated you in any way. automatically the guard walls go up "why is this person being so friendly?" , "what are they after?" , "what is this person up to?" you start to take a cynical view of everyone and everything all because of the past, i subconsciously do that too at times, he probably was a really nice guy...but, maybe he wasn't hee hee. i used to give people the benefit of the doubt, everyone is ok until they prove otherwise...unfortunately i have found out that that can be a dangerous way of thinking..i have been burned several times by ex's so it's been a hard road, so after so much trauma it makes you that way, ya know...just my 2 cents hope this helps!
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