I used to have the same problem, but i'm a a 53 year old woman and a mother of a 23 year old son. He also had some issues with what you're talking about and his therapist seems to think it is just a phase, of which i also went through when i was your age. I feel so bad for him and you because i know how bad it feels, but somehow i just grew out of it, and then everything came together throughout my life and somehow i got here. It is great you are here and i hope you can see a therapist or doc that coud help you. Try not to worry about things or dwell on things that happen too much as that was how i was when i first got sick mentally. I have schitzoaffective disorder, and the meds helped save my life.