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Originally Posted by trying2survive
first of all let me say it's good to hear from you   , haven't heard from you in a while. sorry to hear you are so upset though  so to answer your question, i don't get triggered at all actually quite the opposite..i have to
talk to my fellow borderlines cause "normal" people suck and can't understand us! and if i don't talk to people that get it and hear there stories and tell mine i just sit here in a pool of self sorrow brooding over one of the past relationships that went south. by talking about it i feel better, the more i talk about it the better i feel. i don't know if i'm stable enough to watch a documentary on BPD ( i doubt i could handle that!) but i'm quite at home here on the forum with all you wonderful people that i love so much 
you did it because that's what we always do!!!! things are going good so we expect the bottom to fall out & because we expect that it always does!
we gotta "f" it up, wish we didn't but do ( i gotta work on that!) i'll send you a hug!  ok make it 2!! hang in there, these episodes suck don't they! |
Yeah I sorta missed talking to you...
I can usually handle it in this forum, but not in other places. That documentary just tore me apart and idk even know why. It's not like they brought up anything new...
It's not even that I just EXPECTED **** to get worse... I was actually trying to push all those triggers. At least I think so. I don't even know anymore. I'm scared man... I hate this. I hate myself, I hate how people can't see how much I'm hurting. I haven't heard from the one person I care about since tuesday. I can't believe she's doing this to me. I've always done everything for her and she swore to always be there for me. She knows how much things like this kill me. I ****ing hate her for not caring as much for me as I do for her.
Oh gosh... I'm sorry about this rant. I just want to die really really bad right now.
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