Thank you for your replies!! And to answer the question about wether i was happy or not,, at times yes,, but more not then yes. I Love him,, I truly do. He has always had emotional issues... we were together for almost 5 years before he ever told me he loved me, he went through a really hard divorce his highschool sweetheart. And hes a military man,, so he has this stubborness, and this wall built so high, afraid to be hurt again. The first month we were together he told me that he'd never allow himself to love again, and the problems we had in our relationship is our gambling. We started years ago, and it got REALLY bad. We both have a problem. And it just destroyed us. Thats what he said when he told me he was moving out, he said that we both have to get our life together and we just can't do it together, we've tried, but that he wants us to together, he just wants us to get ourselves and our kids right first. he has his son and I have mine. Do you think that I am stupid for holding on? Do you think that we could make it after all this, after living apart, i guess its kinda like starting over, and that scares me,, it scares me more to think of my life without him.