Hello Dear Sis-

So if you had a compound fracture and the bone was stickig up out of your arm, does he believe it could be fixed with prayer? I am so sorry you must deal with this issue (his issues!) on top of everything else. It must make you feel so lonely to have someone you have devoted your life to, behave in such a childish way. Perhaps if you make the pilgramage to Lourds?

My husband, who was an idiot in many ways, had sense enough to know he did NOT want to be around me when I am off my meds. I am not familiar with the religious teachings your husband is following, but if you had cancer, would he expect you to pray it away?

I think most of us hate what this illness does to us and hate having to live life behind a filter of chemicals. But it's what it takes to achieve any kind of normal life without being strapped to a gurney in a padded room. And yes, I hate that it has stolen so much of my life. I think about what I might have accomplished in my life if not for the monsters that live in my head.

He is obviously never going to be able to change his mind about this-regarding his own health or yours, so acceptence seems to be your only recourse at this time. The next time it begins, you might simply get up and leave the room and refuse to discuss this with him at all.

Just keep in mind that we are always here for you. God loves us and prayer is good but since he gave us the gift of free will, perhaps he intended us to use the gift of logic as well. Sending , T&S