Thanks for your thoughts, and I know you're right but it annoys me that I'm like this now...so guarded and cynical. Not that I was a push over in the past, and I'm aware of how to be careful....but when I get snarly (even if it's only inside, and never show it outside) I just feel like the most awful person, because I KNOW other people are NOT like that.

At least today (so far) it's an 'even' day--although going to work this morning, at a turn in the road a car darted out in front of me, then switched lanes again like he thought he was mario andretti and ...just for a moment...but I went back to my 'even' place and continued the thought I was pondering, and avoided 'swing time', for a change. pffft

Daily battles...and people wonder why I'm so tired. lol