Dear InACorner
you wrote a lot, and it's disconcerting, I have to say. To me, at any rate. I hope I can support you. I don't exactly know how, is all. I don't exactly know what you are looking for support FOR. Well, people are reading your posts, so you're not alone!
Curiosity is a good thing! Do you read a lot? I spend hours reading stuff on the internet. Don't appologise for being curious. (((Inny)))
Winnetka