I'm a virgin 23-year-old male. I've never been in a relationship because I've never actively seeked out any, and I spend most of my time at home, so most of my socialization is done online.

Whenever I think about what kind of girlfriend I would want (or about a couple of people I've met online who I feel somewhat attracted to), I think about their sexual history. One of them had sex once and then done A LOT of things online. Another one had two sexual partners and countless number of "giving a hand" situations, as well as a lot of online-related things. Another one had two partners, one of them lasted for a couple of years. Etc..

Whenever I think about that, I find it utterly disgusting for some reason, and I hate it that I do. I get it that it's normal for people to have sex, even casual sex, even one-night stands - it's normal, but I still find it utterly disgusting. Not only that, but also when people had genuine relationships like mentioned above. What's wrong with me? I understand those things and yet I find it so disgusting, disgusting enough so that it could possibly even be a dealbreaker.

Please ask any questions if you need to.