Hey guys

first post here aha.
I have this problem where I don't appear as depressed/anxious/hypomanic as I actually am and this leads to people not really believing me when I tell them what's happening. This is mostly because I feel really embarassed and guilty about my moods and I'm extremely self aware about what is and isn't appropiate social behaviour. Most people just think I'm chronically tired or something haha.
I'm also having issues with opening up to my psychologist because I'm afraid she won't believe me. Even though I'm really depressed atm, I can still make jokes and appear fine for a few hours at least before I crash. Usually there will be a few days in the week where I appear functioning and if I have a psych appt on that day... Well then she will think I'm fine :/