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Old May 03, 2014, 04:21 AM
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Originally Posted by lolie.rosa View Post
This post helped me identify periods of mania in my life since I have been recently diagnosed after a major psychotic episode but my pdoc told me I probably had the disease since many years without noticing. I kinda have a bipolar personality, it's so much of how I am it gets difficult to say when I was manic. I used to practice 8 to 10 hours a day and be highly productive, doing many things at the same time. I've always been a bit megalomanic. But I don't remember having troubles to sleep until one year before my psychosis. I couldn't sleep but I was mostly depressed. Then I got crazy and thought I was the center of the world, the tv speaked directly to me and there was cameras everywhere watching me. I don't understand what do you mean with crash. I got well imediately after leaving hospital. It means the moment you realise the stupid things you did? Because for me that was the worst part. But I miss being very creative as I used to be. I used to sit and write for hours. Now I can't come up with a single idea and I feel much less smart.

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I'm glad this thread was able to help you identify some things. I remember when I was first diagnosed I had a billion realizations.

Well, partly what I mean by saying "crash" is when going from manic to a depressive stage. Going from a very happy moment then a very depressed moment is pretty bad. It's kind of like having a small taste of something you can't have. Being happy when you hardly are, then when you're depressed there's added sadness because you just want to be happy again and you think "Why can't I have this?"

like being able to touch something you very desperately want and then have it immediately taken away from you
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