This is very embarrassing for me to say, but I think I'm obsessed with my boyfriend.
It's the fact that I know I should have left along time ago, he is very verbal and emotional abusive to the point where I cry everyday. I love him and I want to make it work and I try so hard. We constantly fight about my past and things I've done.. Yet he's the perfect little angel (not even close) like he never does anything wrong. Always my fault!! He is diagnosed with bi polar and is unmedicated. So it's VERY hard for me. I wake up every morning wondering what kind of day I'm in for. We do not live together, I live at home with my mom (my mom will no longer allow him over because she's tired of seeing me upset). Everyone wants me to leave him, but I just can't. 6 years ago I was diagnosed with depression, I was on medication for a couple years and stopped. In all honestly, I feel like I'm going insane I feel like I need help and someone to talk too. I'm constantly depressed one min and the next I'm fine. Its strange. It's been going on like this for awhile now. When I'm not with him (which is a majority of the time now since he's working) I'm constantly thinking about him, I feel like I'm obsessed with him and that's just scary and embarrassing. I don't want to be obsessed with my boyfriend ..
I just don't understand what's going on with me. I hope someone can help me out and give me some advice. Thanks