Yesterday I had the agency tell me that they will not send anyone out to help me anymore. Adult Protection Services came and is investigating me for abuse or neglect of my mother. What??? I ended the day feeling bulletproof and europhic. Huh?

I am going through a difficult time and I was feeling mildly europhic? I do not understand this. What Is wrong with me?

UPDATE: I am one sitting at Denny's with my mother instead of dwelling on the bad stuff at home. I have her listening to her music, a portable setup that I had purchased for her. I have no idea what I am going to do today. I need to keep moving. My anxiety is high, but I am not depressed. I do still have moments of euphoria.