Well I know why I am so hurt now...

about the Lounge problem... and the reason I'm posting here in PTSD!

My ptsd is perpetuated by the authorities in the insurance company and the management company and the attornies and adjuster NOT doing their jobs but weaseling out of it and not doing what is right and just
and fair... but what is self serving and cheap and oft times unethical.

well since John just said that we can talk about ppl all we want on his board.. here I go some...

it is because of HIM that I am so triggered over this issue. I was upset because of the talk about... well you all know that... but then, I felt blind sided by the webmaster!

I never said I spoke for him. Indeed, most all of us welcome others and make comments about what we know about the genre of the board.. and don't get your hands slapped... but I did. AND it came from the person in authority.

Instead of any support.... even a hint of being ethical... like yeah, lets not talk about that guy he hates... he slammed me (I feel that way)

and this post is about ME btw

exactly perpetuating the mechanics of the trauma dynamics after I got blasted by the newbies in the forum... he comes in and acts like them the authority figure isn't the adult.

I need to leave. I hope I can. I'm hating alot right now. I am really hurt. Okay I didn't do everything right but I didn't plan to hurt anyone I didn't call out any s/ns and I SAID I"M SORRY many times but no one accepted it and they have still kept on slamming me and he has allowed it... I begged for the thread to be pulled but he must be enjoying it to me, to allow it to continue is breaking the community rules... you aren't supposed to post that flames or harrasses... what he accused ME of doing in my little welcome but gee not in their ongoing trampling of me?

So now I think he is just like the guy he doesn't like maybe, researching how I react to this unfair treatment of his constant rule changing depending upon who you are.

Sorry people. I'm just too hurt... and too triggered. Maybe it's the med.

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