I've always been jealous of people who are- just happy. I don't understand how it comes so easily to them. I work in a care home and have been told my depression is visible by my manager (he brought it up in a caring way though). But he told me that the residents will pick up on the littlest things and can become very unmanageable. Also it's probably unpleasant to be around me. After he told me this I tried really hard to put on an act of happiness. This made my colleagues warm to me, which was a boost. Also I found that acting happy made me feel happy- instead of wallowing.