'someone chasing me and proving they deserve it.'

Former T did just this. Or tried to at any rate. It was awful. Hurtful, terrifying, confusing, betraying...
Vulnerability is about allowing someone to care for you, not being forced to have someone care for you. It's incredibly difficult for me - I've never, and I mean never, had someone care for me unconditionally. There's always been a price.

Crescent Moon, your T sounds awesome...