@ Trippin2.0, I was going to quote your post but then I realised I'd have to quote the whole thing haha! It's really on point and helpful
and I totaaaally get the using humour as a coping mechanism thing. Even if I'm at my worst I do that.
I can be semi-honest with my family and certain friends, but other friends not so much. They just end up acting really weird around me
Another reason I don't feel comfortable opening up is because I had a bad experience with a counsellor years ago who I really trusted. Basically I wrote out how I was really feeling and he just looked at me and asked "is this a story?". He didn't believe me because I really do look fine on the outside =\
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Originally Posted by Tea&Sympathy
I'd be blind not to recognize how bright and eloquent and sensitive the people are in here. So most of the time you are sitting across from someone that you are just as smart as, or smarter than, as they judge you. Why try to tell them the truth?
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ha-ha not gonna lie I've had that experience too, mostly with school/uni counsellors and I've definitely been more intelligent and they just did.not.get.me at all. It was a struggle not to eye-roll during the entire session while they surmised I was just "going through a phase" and actually there was nothing really wrong with me and, I quote "that's just anxiety, no big deal". I tried telling a uni counsellor a year ago about my hypomanic symptoms (this was before I was diagnosed with BDII, I wasn't saying I had bipolar but I was concerned and wanted to look into the possibility of it) and she's just like nope, and you're not that depressed either. This was after I explained I'm actually more depressed than I look and I can hide things very well and she STILL looked at me incredulously. FUUUUUUUU.
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Originally Posted by newgal2
There's another exception too: I always tell me T and pdoc exactly how I'm doing. I see no point in being anything other than honest about it, so they can treat me accordingly.
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I desperately need to do this, I just wish my mind would stop drawing a blank every single time
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Originally Posted by unlockingsanity
I have weekly therapy and it's hard to even get out of that pretend-everything-is-fine every single week. I mean, hello - wouldn't be going if there wasn't an issue, but I still feel awkward about sharing. This is after years of therapy  |
I've seen so many people and have had such difficulty with this over the years. I hate when I first walk in and they ask how you are, because of course I'm going to say "fine" because that's the polite thing to do haha. That's just culturally ingrained stuff though...
I think it just comes down to trust. I don't trust whoever I'm seeing to not disbelieve me/ invalidate my issues and feelings etc. Also I always feel so much anxiety when I go I end up feeling numb
wow that was a lot, sorry for the word vomit guys ha-ha
