I am in a similar situation to yours. I was injured on the job in '05 and have 2 herniated disc and nerve impengment of the nerve roots to both legs. I have since lost my job because I was unable to perform and the insurance company has fought me every step of the way. I also fear losing everything that I have worked so hard for. It does make you feel useless, hopeless, depressed, anxious, and angry all at the same time. It is overwhelming for people like us sometimes and for those close to us as well. I can understand what you are going through and I know it is difficult. But remember that a good lawyer can make all the difference. Fight to get your money and to keep your medical open because you may need further medical attention in the future. I know it feelslike a never ending battle but remember there is always light at the end of the tunnel.