So in the last year, I was branching out and learning how to socialize with people, but now I just don't want to be around them anymore. And they were a group of society's rejects (that's why I almost fit in) so if it doesn't work out with them, I don't see much hope making friends with the rest of society. I also almost feel happier being by myself, except for the emptiness, boredom, and loneliness. But at least I don't feel anxious and depressed a good portion of the time, like I do when I socialize. I'm also tired of being the new person in any group…I never stay with the same group long enough to not be the "new kid".

I just wish there was a way to not have to trade my mental/emotional health to alleviate loneliness and feel fulfilled.

I don't know why I don't feel comfortable around ANYONE in that group anymore…it was really only one person who really hurt me. And another one that I'm nervous around. But I shut down if I'm around any of them, even if neither of those two are there now.