Better today than the last few days. Today I was able to get out of bed by 11 and do laundry and get showered and dressed. I have not been able to do that for the previous 4 days. It is embarrassing to not clean as well as you used to, but it takes an enormous amount of effort even to do a load of laundry.

I have had major depression since the age of 22 and am now 43. Life has pretty much been awful and painful most of the time. I don't have a lot of friends and my family is nuttier than I am, so basically alone. Friends have left me because I am such a downer. I would give anything to be normal. It is frustrating because people don't understand. An example of how this has effected me is in the area of e employment. I am a very hard worker but consistently have trouble keeping jobs. The reason is my fault, I know. I am unable to warm up to my teammates, struggle with organization, and am extremely sensitive to any criticism (I virtually cry when someone tells me I did something wrong).

Can anyone relate? What do you do in these kinds of situations?