Hi all. my name's Michelle. I was diagnosed as bipolar type 1 on new years eve in 2013. Since then it's been horrible... I just passed a manic episode (which are fun D:!) now I'm in a depressive episode. I just want to die, I want the pain to end. And being admitted isn't an option for me. And yes, I'm considering suicide. Help me? I need it. Please help me change my mind :/