Thanks sui generis-

No-when I get like this it's better to be alone. The Suicide Prevention Coordinator at the VA is my bud and I'll call her. Also have the VA crisis line and call them frequently.

I have a lot to do in terms of writing-have to kill 14,000 words on one ms.

I couldn't sleep so I called them and made a plan this morning-to make a cup of hot chocolate, take an extra klonipin, turn off the comp and watch a movie while reading a book. It worked.

Next Monday I'm going to the VA hospital talk to a committee in terms of what help I need physically and in psych needs. Isolating is good for me-I geet things done and not having to go out in the world is good for me.
Wierd, I know, but that's what works.

Thanks so much for writing-no one else did. So my plan right now is the same as last night. (hot choc at night-tea in the morning and afternoon!)
T&S