Thank you all soooo much. I have changed alot about myself already. I've lost 25 pounds, I've changed the way I dress, I basicly didn't care before, now I fix my hair and makeup. I feel sooo much better about myself. But I still love him, and I still think that he is my one. Its hard because I dont see how he could walk away the way he did if he truly loved me. Hes so confusing about the way he feels, he doesn't show emotions. In the 8 years we've been together, I've always been the one to hug him, to kiss him, to show my emotions. we've only been apart one time and that was for 2 weeks when he left for military things, when he came home it was like a new person, he hugged me and kissed me like he never had. He told me over and over how much he missed me, and loved me. It was like he was surprised he felt that way. I know in my heart that he loves me, I know it. I just don't want to grow further apart, I don't WANT to find someone else. I want US to be OK, is that wrong? I can't sleep at nights because I get so lonely and miss him so terribley.