I just don't know what to do with myself. I feel completely off the wall and alienated from normalcy. My boyfriend tells me I'm dwelling on it and making it worse but it seems like I'm driven by these thoughts and just this underlying unease and fear.

I don't know how to cope with this productively!!!

I got most of my people in my life worried about me because at 3:00 am I "had" to go to my boyfriend's house because I was just so agitated and afraid to just be alone. I spent till now there, but he's having a hard time coping with me coping with myself. I feel like I have to to turn this around but feel stuck and mixed up.