hi! just by reading your insights, i'd feel a lil bit better! i realize that i'm not the only one who experiences this kind of symptoms. you're right that it actually led me to serious depression. i have been this eversince elementary, and as far as i can remember, i had really a hard time getting over major embarrassing moments that happened to me. and even those little "social" mistakes i did, keep on replaying inside my mind. then, i'd go blank and lose my sense of time, of purpose and my sense of self!
i'm already 21, and i'm still this. i get frustrated that i don't know how to make myself feel comfortable with people.
this is all i can share by now.