I am so sorry for all of the pain that you have been through...your heart was broken in natural and emotional ways...What your "brother" meant for evil to do to you, God used for good...because he was used to save your life...I understand that a part of you was taken, a part of your trust and heart, but, I am convinced that God has given you a new heart, both in the natural and the emotional realm...take gentle care...you need time to heal..