Yeah I was there all day yesterday and then didn't sleep well last night so I was going to skip the 8am session and then I just decided to skip the whole thing today. It's just really hard for me because it was actually giving a speech at this very convention 3 years ago at this same convention center that triggered my psychosis. So a lot of the people I'm meeting or interacting with were the voices in my head. Also there was one guy who I wanted to kill for some reason and now they have a poster that contradicts one of our published papers and that is weird and conflicted for me almost like he is an actual threat...I'm not delusional but the there is this little part of my mind that thinks it was right about him somehow. After considering it for a bit I just decided that nothing showing today was good enough for me to risk my health over. I have to go tomorrow because I have a poster and it will be up from 8-5 so I can't just go home so I decided better to be well rested for tomorrow. I actually have to stand in front of the poster to answer questions from 12-2 and I don't wan to freak out or anything.

So yeah just recuperating today...I am kind of exhausted...