lostson, if you are still reading here, here's one link I found that might be helpful to you: Why Offer Pedophiles Therapy? It's not much, but it's something. Perhaps I'll add that there are some things in this life that people say can't be recovered from. I think they can if you want it badly enough. You don't seem to want to be a person who hurts other people, let alone children who are entitled to the care, protection and nurturing of the adults around them. In stripping them of their innocence and humanity, you inevitably lose your own.

Best of luck to you in your recovery journey, lost son.