I'm sorry to hear you are having an unhappy birthday.

I am almost always depressed on my birthday. My birthday is Jan 1, and I have rarely had people to celebrate with because people are tired and hung over from NYE. When people do celebrate with me, they seem to be doing it out of feeling obligated, and not because they want to or are enjoying themselves. I usually feel very lonely on my birthday and I reflect back on my life and see all the things that are wrong. When I was married it was a little better because I had my husband to spend it with, but I would usually be depressed and he would get angry with me for not appreciating whatever he was trying to do for me, so we would end up fighting. I had a few good birthdays, but for the most part I wish I could skip them entirely because they just make me feel like a loser and a failure.

EDIT:
This sounded really self-indulgent, so I edited it and removed some parts. Sorry, I should be more grateful. Just having a bad day.