jinnyann: i wish maybe i was more understanding and compassionate, but at this time in my life i cant do it.

People vary in regard to where they are in their recovery process and there is no real logic to it -- you're simply where you are. Part of the reason I didn't speak up earlier is I can remember my own discomfort at being in a similar situation a few years ago -- I didn't like it, and I didn't want that person in my space.

I can appreciate that this must have been a difficult decision for the administrators but I can also appreciate that it was difficult for some of the community members, as well as lostson or anyone else like him. For better or worse, his healing can't be found here. There are too many others who are still in a state of rawness from their own experience. It's is probably best that he move on, as much for him as for others. After all, if he's triggering people he's likely going to end up with some projected material landing upon him and that's not healthy or fair for him either.

All recovery journeys are filled with potholes and lurching moments -- the important thing is to keep walking. lostson is working with a therapist, he recognizes that he has a problem and he's taking steps to correct it. Just as I needed to find others who had been through an experience that was similar to my own and had recovered from it, so too, lostson will benefit from finding others that have wrestled with the same kind of personal demons he's wrestling with, and won. They're somewhere out there too.