I get it. I definitely do.

I'm currently feeling ill (comes and goes these days), so can't concentrate enough to read every post. But the thread pretty much covers what's been on my mind as of late.

In the trans community, you see this... gender restriction a lot. And it's ironic, you know? You'd think all of them, of all people, would get that gender is essentially nothing more than a socially constructed idea. Something is only 'feminine' because someone defines it as such.

Normally, I identify as male. I am f2m, after all. Sometimes, though, I wear dresses. Sometimes, I wear skinny jeans and frilly shirts. Everyone around me acts as though this is some crime. As though I'm not allowed to do it. As though me doing it somehow makes me less of a trans*male than I was the day before. What? Why?

I consider myself genderless more and more these days. With little identity left, even my gender has been up to question. I have experienced judgment for my 'variety' in clothing from transwomen, transmen, genderqueer individuals, lesbians... The worst part is, we're not allowed to talk about it. It's as though we are not considered part of the 'community' at all. Feels... "lovely" when you already feel as though you lack a stable identity. When even the LGBT community seems to deny you exist.