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my husband just told me he has a painkiller problem. Took 40 Vicodin in three days. On top of his fentanyl patch.

He got hurt about a year ago and has been on painkillers ever since. And of course I'm a freaking nut job so that is awesome. Oh no it isn't, that's right.

I'm so ****ed. I don't have any idea what to do. I'm running around like a lunatic scrubbing floors and **** while he apparently decided to stay stoned all day. Yesterday I knew something was wrong but he told me it was just the muscle relaxer...which are also addictive. **** me, right?

I don't know what to do. He said it's only been in the last month when I happened to be swirling around the edges of psychosis until I got sucked down. From stress,'I might add.

This sounds like I'm being a selfish ***** right now but I don't know what the **** to do. My meds aren't doing ****, how can I be strong for him! How do I help him? I mean I'm calling his doctor tomorrow. He said he will but I'm not sure. I'm also goig to call all the friends he get **** from. I knew this whole thing was fishy....the disappearing of the pills...how many times can thy get stolen? Really? Someone spilled coffee on them? And I allowed him to buy from the street. What horrible person does that and doesn't think why? He swore he was telling the truth and he never lies to me. Until now. And I missed it all because I thought he was tryig to control me with meds so I shut him out. What kind of an asshole am I?

But this is NOT ABOUT ME WHY CANT I GET THAT THROUGH MY THICK HEAD? I galivanted around all ****ing summer, all school year long, hospital therapy meds no meds psychosis. If I had taken Better care of myself instead of pretending I would have seen this. One ER trip a month? Because magically, pills disappeared and what else were we gonna do?

**** THIS.

Someone tell me how to help him. Last week stress kicked off psychosis real ****ing fast. Now I'm on geodon. Will it keep working? Or will my son be down two parents?

****.

I only posted here because I know many of you. If it has to be moved to another forum I'm ok.

What do I do what do I do what do I do