Dear BrokenGlass,

I am so sorry for all that you've gone through It sounds horrible and very traumatic. Your family sounds really, really dysfunctional and abusive.

Are you currently going to a school?? If yes, please do get in touch with your school counsellor, if you have one. Who is your caregiver now? Are they taking you to a therapist? If not, you should see one. CSA cannot be dealt with alone, it certainly needs professional help.

If you don't have any caregiver to help you, please reach out to your country's Child abuse helpline and they'd be able to help you by providing a safe place and counseling.

We're here to help you in any way we can.
good luck!