It took me 4 attempts, and reaching 1am still feeling like crud and crying because I am terrified to face my class and lecturers tomorrow to be able to send an email to my therapist. A really brief ...No worries if you are busy but could I please see you email. Now I just feel ashamed for asking for help.

I know I am talking to myself here, that's ok.....sorry again for venting, I do not like feeling needy.