Hi Lonely, No there's not something wrong with you, there's something wrong with them. And you're right you do need to get out of this situation.
I know it isn't easy though, maybe the hope that things can get better, maybe the needlessly blaming yourself, maybe the self esteem/confidence this relationship is taking from you, maybe the feeling all alone in all of this, maybe the wanting to believe..........?????
But you do know that love isn't supposed to be like this, so that's a great start to moving away from the relationship. Now it's time to put your needs first, and you don't deserve any of this!!
And you know I'd say you've already had enough of this, haven't you?
So just know you can move away from a relationship like this, and we're here to offer you support.
Alison