Yeah it was like, my mother wouldnt get close to me, but she wouldnt let anybody else get close to me either. Im serious, the literature just isnt out there. And what is out there is so unaccessible. Im trying to read "Like Subjects, Love Objects: essays on recognition and sexual difference" by Jessica Benjamin. Its a SLOG. Im gonna have to swallow my pride and ask my t to explain it to me. Or turn off the tv and make an effort myself. Or go find the writer and punch her.