For the past three days it's been the same dream... I screwed up the chance of a lifetime with the friend of mine. We have a relationship a shot last week, but I messed up the chance in just three days.

I relive my stupidity every night and feel the pain from it fresh all over again. It's a little worse each night...it even adds to the pain I already feel. Everything is stressful. Just sitting here is stressing me out. Nothing relaxes me anymore! I used to sleep through depression, but I can't now! I'll be put right back into that nightmare... Why am I such a worthless loser??