I think the real issue for me is that I don't want to know if a T has hope or not... I don't want to know if a T likes me or not... I don't want to know if a T cares about me or not...

Therapy is supposed to be about me and I do a very good job (told by 2 Ts) of keeping it about me... but as soon as they open their mouth about any of the above things... in my head it becomes about what I will do to disappoint them or for them not to feel that way... I've told the last one that I don't want to know anything about you...other than are you married and do you have children... and that is so I know if they can relate to my real life issues with real life experience?