I can completely identify with what you wrote about never fitting in. There have only been a handful of times, in my life, when I've been able to truly integrate with a group of people and feel accepted. Most of the time I'm on the outside looking in. Sometimes this makes me feel depressed and alone. Other times I feel I'm lucky. I don't fit in because I'm different; sensitive, deep thinking, etc.. Those traits bring rewards too. You say say that you almost fit in because they are rejects. In my view a lot of people conform to what society demands from them, simply in order not to stand out from the crowd and to allow them to integrate. Those who don't or can't conform have a hard time in some respects. But those kinds of people are sometimes quite special in a wonderful way